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to live is Christ, to die is gain.

The apostle Paul wrote those words in Philippians 1:21...God did some miraculous work thru Paul didn't he!? After Paul saw the light (literally) he traveled to Judea, Syria, Cilicia, Galatia, Pamphylia, Asia, Macedonia, Achaia and Italy. WOW. I've shared God's word....via skype to my bestie Nicole and...uhhh..shoot. What am I doing?! Yikes, I'm so ready to go, to tell of God's glory, to "Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and teaching." (2 Tim. 4:2) Its convicting to know that I really haven't done as much as I could be doing, if I died, I have no doubt I would meet Jesus, my Lord and Savior would know my heart and how much I love Him and my willingness and readiness to share Him with the world..but I also know He will stand before me and say, Look at what you could have had, if only you had come to me sooner, done My work rather than yours. In one of my earlier posts I had writ

crazy love.

A month or so ago, my awesome b.i.l. sent me a book written by Francis Chan, called "crazy love". I finally finished it today with tears in my eyes and with a humbled and convicted heart. So many things in that book made me stop and think, or stop and pray...okay, and stop to cry...but the final few statements were the hardest to swallow. " The fact that the Bible is clear that each of us will stand before God and account for our lives: For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil. (2 Cor. 5:10 esv) " With less than two pages left, I closed the book and my eyes. What have I done? Good or Evil...can I be an inbetweener? Yeah, I can...but I probably won't meet God. Wow. I don't want to be an 'inbetweener' anymore, or ever again. I want to live my life as if Jesus was following me around, well, not like He isn't already :). I pray

making a story.

First thing first, I am NOT a writer. I am not blogging because I have a good story to tell, or because I think people are interested in reading about my life and certainly not because I can write well. I decided to blog because this year God is making me a better story, and I never want to forget what I was and would always be without Him. God is the only constant in my life, yet I daily forget Him. I have lived for me everyday of my life, but it has only brought me emptiness, sadness and a want for more. More of the things that will only bring me back to the same place that I started from, back to pain, lies and a heart of lonliness. But I see God sitting next to me with His hand on mine, giving me hope and pouring His love into my heart, because He wants me to be happy, and knows what it will take. Everyday of my life will now start with the sincere prayer of Luke 22:42a, "not my will, but Yours be done." There is nothing I want more from this life on earth but to