January 31, 2011

marriage.

So, this seems a bit strange to be blogging about, mostly because, I don't really know the first thing about marriage yet.  I don't know what its going to be like, how we will react to it...I basically just know that I can't wait :)  But I think its actually starting to hit me that in 40 days and 6 hours I will be standing in front of 100 or more people, confessing my undying love to my Mark....and to be honest, it kind of scares the dickens out of me.  First of all, the fact that I have to walk in to a room, where everybody then stands up to stare at me.  Oh my goodness, anyone that  even barely knows me probably knows that I hate the spotlight like that.  People are going to be staring at me!!!!  (WARNING : for those of you attending the wedding, please don't laugh at my face when it instantly turns bright red!).  Secondly, I'm really going to be married.  I tried to explain this thought to Mark the other day, and he laughed at me (go figure!).  Its like, my whole 24 years of singleness led up to this one day, where I change from single to married...and then for the next 70 years, I will be married. Its weird to think about!  Please don't take this the wrong way, I LOVE Mark, I seriously can't get enough of my man.  Every night when its time for bed, and Mark leaves, I just want to keep hugging him so that he can't go...sometimes I even get whiney, I just want to snuggle with my man for hours and hours....I want to see his amazing smile when I wake up in the morning, I can't wait to have someone who will forever be on MY side, through anything!  I'm going to have someone to serve God next to, to lean on when I'm feeling week in my walk with God, someone that loves me unconditionally.  I can't wait to be married.  BUT, thinking about it is still weird :)


Also, I got the impression from a lot of people that reading on marriage truly will help when the rough days come, so Mark and I have been working on reading some books that people have suggested.  The first one was the 5 love languages, which we both got some great ideas from :)  Then I read a book called So Long Insecurity by Beth Moore.  She brought up some good points and I've been trying really hard the last few days to be secure.  Yesterday I had a little problem with it...but for the most part I think the book really is going to help.  The next few books we are reading (already purchased from the store) are Sheet Music and Saving Your Marriage Before it Starts.  We heard about those books from several younger married couples, so we're both excited to read them.  If you have any reading suggestions for us we will gladly get the book!  Feel free to let us know!


Lastly I'll give you a little update on wedding plans!  This week we found someone to make our cake (YAY and YUM!).  We will be going to put in our order today!  Also, I picked up my dress from the store with my good friend Aubri!  It was so much fun, we went and got lunch, drove to Salem and then came home and watched a few hours of Say Yes to the Dress.  Also, we really got our wedding budget sorted out and now we know exactly how much more money we need!  We were both happily surprised that it was less than we thought.  We also did some test painting, figured out the wedding day schedule of events, organized the dress rehearsal dinner, started recruiting people to help with set-up and take down of the wedding, figured out which island on Hawaii we will most likely be staying on, sent out a few last minute invitations and have started prepping for the bridal showers.  Well I started prepping.  Like I said before, me being the spotlight makes me nervous, so I'm practicing my breathing technique and my appreciation for all the hard work everyone else is putting into my wedding.  I can't believe how much work it really is for everyone!  I am seriously thankful, I can't wait to have them!  


I hope everyone has a great Monday and a fantastic week!



January 26, 2011

and the honeymoon destination is...

HAWAII.

eeeeek!  its official :)  


a HUGE shout out to WILLIAM RANES, who is making all my honeymoon dreams come to life, and also to TIM MOSSHOLDER, who is finding us a nice / inexpensive place to stay.


donations can be made at our website

www.markandtracyswedding.com


YAY!!!!!

January 22, 2011

high / low

People always talk about this fun game called high / low, where they talk about the highs and lows of their days.  So today, I guess I just wanted to write a quick one. 

My high was spending tons of quality time with my soon to be husband, working on wedding planning and daydreaming about our soon to be married lifestyle. 

My low was waking up with super puffy eyes from all that crying last night.  I had a great last night with my twiblings, which also meant a horrible night, because they just wanted to sit on my lap and hug me and kiss me over and over, like they knew that I wouldn't regularly be spending time with them anymore.  It was so amazing, but I cried the last 30 minutes of being there.  I love those babies, they were the last 13 months of my life.  I taught them where their noses are, how to shake things, where a hat goes, how to say hi...I sang to them and prayed over them.  I spent countless hours rocking them to sleep and changed hundreds of diapers.  I've had an amazing year with them.  I sent Mark a text a few minutes before I left saying 'Sad, I won't know these little babes anymore.'  and he wrote back 

'Its okay.  In a few years you'll know OUR little babies:)'

I can't explain how much I love that man.  Anyway, here's a photo from my last night with my babies. 

January 21, 2011

the hard thing...

The hard thing about blogging is that there are tons of things I could blog about, but I might hurt somebody's feelings, so I refrain.  Sheesh. 

This first month of 2011 has gone by faster than I could have imagined.  Its already the 21st, and now less than 50 days until I get married.  This month I have :

  • Found dates for both bridal showers, and the bachelorette party.
  • Purchased my wedding dress.
  • Picked up bridesmaids dresses and shoes.
  • Read one book.
  • Knitted a scarf and finished a baby blanket.
  • Found a new job.
  • Quit two jobs.
  • Only purchased two articles of clothing.
  • Loved my fiance with all my heart.
So I'd say its been productive.  

BTW, I feel badly about not inviting a  lot of childhood friends to the wedding, but our venue holds only about 120 people.  We have already invited over than many with family, family requests and our close friends here in Portland, so please don't hold it against us!  However, if you wold like to be a part of something, I am more than happy to invite you to one of the bridal showers, or even just to hang out and catch up.  and for those of you who got an invitation and haven't RSVP'd yet, its only 49 days away, so RSVP  :).

I hope everyone else has had a productive first month of January!  Have a great weekend!

January 01, 2011

the year i get married.


Happy 2011!  
This should be an exciting year, after all, we are finally in the year that I'm getting married to the most amazing man on the planet :)

BTW, Christmas was good, having Naomi in town was great, I got to go hold two cute little babies in Olympia and spend some quality time with friends, then spent the last day of 2010 with the twins, and the evening with my wonderful fiance.

Some great things about 2010:
  • Met Mark.
  • Got engaged to Mark.
  • Saw more of Portland.
  • Met awesome people at Theophilous.
  • Took my first term at Bible College.
  • Watched two little babies grow.
  • Trusted God, saw results :).